You don't have to spend much time around the little one we currently have to fall in love with her. She's funny, smart, outgoing and just a "good" toddler. If there is such a thing. She has been with us before and now that she is back, we realize why we were so quick to say..."yes....send her back." She is just a joy. There is really no other way to put it.
And it has been decided that unless something drastically changes, she will start transitioning home in December. She will start transitioning home to a mom that is scary. And rough. And just not nice. Now, I do not say that lightly. I am a reunification cheerleader. I really am. I know that regardless, these kids are looking at a home life that is not what I would choose. I mean, most of us live a 'rose colored glasses life', and I understand that. Even in the best of reunification we are still looking at tough times and even tougher kids.
But this mom. And this dad. They are just not very nice. They really aren't. They are rough, have very questionable character, and honestly just seem like they would rather hit people than talk to them. But they are smart. And they are working the system unlike anyone I have ever seen and they know how to do the basics to get their kids back. And it is working.
The other day I was reading Esther and she was talking to Mordecai about being queen. She was telling him all about how she was not sure and there were lots of unknowns and so forth. And he made the statement that maybe she had become queen for "such a time as this." And honestly, I thought of C. It's a very hard way to think, but maybe she is going back to her family for such a time as this. Maybe, just maybe, she is going home because she will rise up and bring the gospel to a lost family.
Our church staff went to see Insanity of God a few weeks ago, and one of the things I will never forget is the missionary talking about losing his son on the mission field and asking the question...."is God worth it? Is He worth our family? If the resurrection truly happened, then what now?"
It is a hard pill to swallow to see a child so smart, so bright, so cute, going home to a family so rough, so mean, and seemingly so undeserving of a second chance. But, if we believe God is who He says He is, God can do what He says He can do, and the crucifixion and resurrection happened, then we have to say that He is worth it. And our little Esther will go home....for such a time as this.....